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Time:12:00 am
Current Mood:lovedloved
OK where to start. It has been so long since I updated here. Thank god, for friends and their laptops I guess. What has been going on? Well I could make a long story short or I could go into all the gritty details. So I will try to make it short.

I have been in and out of testing for months now. It seems as though we may have an answer soon but I don’t want to get my hopes up to high. Just in case….

But that is not what has me happy as hell. Someone important had finally came to visit me. I thought I had lost him because things had gone bad. But here he is and I am happy as hell.

Lastly, you know who you are. Thank you. Thank you for understanding me better then I do myself. I am sorry for the hell you have had to go through because of me. I do not know when I will be out of here but as soon as I am, I want you to know that I will do everything in my power to make it up to you.

Love you more then life it’s self sometimes. I cannot apologize enough for trying to shelter you from everything.
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Subject:From veth
Time:09:52 pm
1. we all know that to live in our politically correct society, we aren't supposed to be prejudiced against other people for their race, age, class, sexuality, gender, etc., etc., but that's not always possible. do you have any ingrained prejudices that you can't seem to get rid of? if so, where'd they come from? parents? friends? environment? if not, how did you avoid it?

I have one: I do not suffer people in mass well. They are fine one on one or even in a very small group. However you get them all together and its raving lunatics. I would have to say it is environment as a cause. You stick someone in a group of people that act like morons often enough and soon they won’t like big groups of people.

2. what is your favorite city out of every one you've been to and why?

New Orleans. It is beautiful and exotic. However, there is a seedy side that draws you in. I guess it’s a moth to the flame thing. Is so pretty to look at you just can’t help but get close no matter how painful it is if you actually reach it.

3. which is more of an attraction, soft skin or perfect lips?

Skin…. I just really like the feel of it beneath my fingers. ^_~

4. what is your favorite hot drink (coffee, tea, cocoa, etc.)? why? do you have any fond memories of it?

I am a coffee drinker by desire. Tea by necessity. Well I love coffee. It just tastes good to me. Accept the crap they serve at work thus the tea… As for fond memories of it… well there are more then a few and not enough time to type them all.

5. what is the best time of year for breaking up with someone? what about for starting a new relationship?

Wow now that’s one I never really thought about before….

The best time of year for breaking up with someone… I don’t really think there is a best time of year for it. I think it is more of an emotional thing then that. When you’re ready to move on to a new stage in your life and they don’t share that with you... Though most people feel that way in the spring or fall?. Damn you have to ask the hard questions don’t you.

Guess the same can be said about starting one… You just know when you are ready?

I had to think way too hard about this one.
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Time:07:50 pm
ANother day another dollar. I managed to fuck yet another computer at work. Don't ask me how but this will be the fith one since I started...Less then a year ago.

At least I am good at something I guess.
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Subject:Loves his man.
Time:02:22 pm
Current Mood:happyhappy
THings are seemingly gooing good here. It was great spending some time just laughing and having fun with the man. He seemed really happy for the first time in months and I am greatful for that. He wears accomplishment well. And what he is working on looks great so far.

Keep it up babe, I love you and I am here for you if you need me.
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Time:07:46 am
Current Mood:sleepysleepy
Another day here I come. All I want to do is sleep this week. It wouldn't be bad but I didn't do a very good job of it last night.. -_-;

well off to get ready for work.
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Subject:So much to say.
Time:10:18 pm
Current Mood:calmcalm
Has anyone ever had so much to say but had no idea how to put it into words?

I guess it can be summed up in a few words really.

I want to make it better.
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Time:11:11 pm
Current Mood:calmcalm
Time once again for random updates.

WOrk sucks but I deal.

Boyfriend is lightening up again which is a good thing.

I don't get enough sleep.

thats about it.
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Time:05:01 pm
Current Mood:calmcalm
Wow I didn't realize how long it had been since i updated this. Let alone look at it. I am so horrible with remembering that LJ is even here sometimes.

Now for the update......

Things have been going ok. Work is fine, nothing really that exciting going on there at the moment. (that is beyond the normal drama of everything.)
I am getting readdy for my next instalments of doctor apointments. Soon hopefully, I am waiting on my car before i do that however. Fun times my frinds.. -_-;

Other then that I am simply lonely. Its odd really I shouldn't be but here I am going out of my mind missing people. You would think I would have gotten over it by now.

I am looking forward to a few things coming up. Mostly cons and a few movies that I really want to see. I am thinking about making a trip to my parents sometime soon. If i can get the cash together for a train ticket and still keep on my new saving schedual. O' the joys of travel. *smile*

Well, catch you later.
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Current Music:the opening theme to Saiyuki
Time:09:48 am
Current Mood:sleepy
Wanna Play? -- The Shower Meme
If you want me to interview you--post a comment that simply says, "Interview me." I'll respond with questions for you to take back to your own journal and answer as a post. Of course, they'll be different for each person since this is an interview and not a general survey. At the bottom of your post, after answering the Interviewer's questions, you ask if anyone wants to be interviewed. So it becomes your turn-- in the comments, you ask them any questions you have for them to take back to their journals and answer. And so it becomes the circle.
Who will play? May I interview you? -- Originally from anoisblue

From Vethia

1. Big fish in a small pond or small fish in a big pond? Which do you prefer and why?

Well I prefer a small fish in a little pond. I enjoy sitting in the background not really noticed. I am the type of guy that doesn’t say much but when I do it has a tendency to be a sarcastic comment from the background. I like it that way.

2. which job would you rather have, us postal worker or floor sweeper? why?

Postal worker. When I go on the killing spree people would have expected it. *grins*

3. it's celebrity deathmatch time. martha stewart versus viggo mortensen (i hope i spelled that right). How does the match play out, and who is the winner?

Martha Stuart. For one reason and one reason only, she is Satan. The dark prince himself in drag. It would be quick painful and bloody.

4. which is more entertaining: "survivor" or the ongoing debates between democratic presidential hopefuls?

Unfortunately I would have to go with the democratic presidential debates. There is more reality to that then any "reality TV."

5. what is your favorite kind of cheese and why?

Swiss. I like the way it tastes and you gota love the little holes?

Questions from random_bishie:

1. What is the single sweetest thing someone has done for you? Ever? ( I wanna out do the bastard XD lol )

Now this one took a lot of thought. Not many people go out of their way to do things for me. So when they do I am always ecstatic about it. My friend Aaron would have to take the cake on that one though. You see I have never had a date on Valentines Day. Don’t ask me how that works out it just has. The only time I was actually with someone... Well it wasn't something they believed in. But I digress. Aaron showed up at my door with flowers and a shitty grin. Telling me that we were going on a date if I liked it or not. He is one of my best friends. I gave him shit about the flowers and had the most relaxing fun day I had had in a long time. It is defiantly not something I will forget anytime soon. (And don't worry luv he is one of the straightest guys I know.)

2. What is your ultimate goal in life?

My ultimate goal in life is to take over the world. No but seriously I think my ultimate goal would be to fix my medical problems. That and to be happy. How I get there doesn't really matter and the first goal plays off the second in a BIG way.

3. Strawberry or butterscotch? *snort*

Oh why couldn't you have asked chocolate or vanilla like a normal person?
I would have to go for the butterscotch. *Relives one drunken night not to long ago.* defiantly butterscotch.

4. If you knew you only had 24 hours to live, what would you do with it and who would you tell?

I wouldn't tell anyone. If I only had 24 hours to live, I would max out any credit cards I had and spend the time with the people I love and care about.

5. What is YOUR meaning of life?

Heh... My meaning of life.....
Well I would have to say the meaning of life is a simple one for me. To live from day to day with as little worry as possible. Not only is it pointless but all it does is make you feel sick. I have enough of that in my life. I don't need to add to it.
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Time:01:30 pm
Current Mood:calmcalm
The Yaoi Selector: Which Uke are You?

brought to you by Quizilla

this is just too funny

You have wings of STEEL. No one's really
sure why, but at this point in your life you've
shut off emotion to the point of extreme
apathy. You are cold and indifferent much of
the time...or perhaps you're just a good
pretender. Next to impossible to get close to,
even those who do never see the real you. It's
entirely possible that YOU don't even know the
real you. You have a certain fascination or
attraction to destruction on a massive scale -
disasters, perhaps even death or the concept of
the Apocalypse. Because you hold so much
inside, one day you're simply going to snap.
Then the mask will fall away, and your true
wings will be revealed. Until then you will
deal with whatever comes your way in icy bitter
silence and acceptance. On the positive side,
you are fearless and immeasurably strong - not
much can crack through your defenses. You
intrigue people, who can't help but wonder why
you're the way you are. A loner and one who
spends much of their time brooding and
contemplating life and death - you are a time
bomb waiting to explode and create some
destruction of your own.

*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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